Shortly after I gave up on the temp agency, we had a family game night with some extended family. One of the ladies mentioned that her husband could help me with my resume and applying to some jobs. My social anxiety is so bad, that I can't ever get words out to speak to these people. This was my chance and I was getting yelled at if I didn't call him up.
There's that scary "call" word again. Of course I paced around before I made that call too but after I did we scheduled a time to meet up at his house. I dreaded this more than anything because I would have to talk and I was scared because he has barely ever heard me speak before. What if I make a complete idiot out of myself??
Once I got there we sat down and the first thing he brings up is a job at AT&T. Apparently he didn't get the hint that I didn't really want to do programming stuff, but whatever. I might as well give this a try. I really didn't want to work downtown either, which is where the building would be. He had worked there for many years and knew some people and talked to them. It was really strange because he tried to set up a lunch with them which I don't know how that would've went with me. Yikes.
I filled out the stupid application nervously and sent it in. He then sent an e-mail letting them know to look for my application or whatever. This just felt like torture to me. All I could think about was what if they want an interview soon? I'm nowhere near prepared for this!! Of course he went over the whole interview process as well. I don't know if it made me feel any better or more nervous. I really didn't want this because I didn't even want this job.
By the next day he wanted me to call them up to see if they received my application and resume or something. I can't remember. My nerves for that were running high because I felt really weird doing that. It took a lot of courage to make that call and I really hoped they wouldn't answer and I could just leave a voicemail. I had my message for a voicemail all written out and prepared. Luckily that's what I got and they called back shortly to say I wasn't qualified. I knew I wasn't so it wasn't surprising to get that answer and I was quite happy about that.
I went over one other time to work on my resume. He really changed the format of it and I'm not so sure I really liked it but oh well. I still had a copy of my original one anyways. He then was going to have me summarize some job on it and he sat behind me and I was nearly frozen. I felt hot all over. I didn't want him sitting there. I can't stand people watching what I'm doing when I don't know what I'm doing. He at least got the hint and left saying "it's probably hard when someone is watching." Yes, and I still didn't know what I was doing and relied heavily on his help and input. I'm so terrible at this stuff!
He called a few more times about a job here and there and making connections on LinkedIn with some people he knows. I don't think I ever got around to that. I barely even use that site. By then the conversations died down and I got a surprising opportunity!!
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